Coffee challenge

Not even tracking it as a daily cheevo now, im past the feeling of need u had and im now just missing it as a nice treat.
All these layers to peel through, and i truly wonder if its the same with anything.
And i really really wonder if its different if you percieve the challenge to quit as a hiatus. That instead of Im Done Here it is approached as only 3 more days i can have XX. It would have to be different.
Lasting just a bit longer is a different type of willpower than permanent refrain, or at least a different execution.

Lost Count

Missing coffee, dont mind though.

Interestingly i have become more aware of my actual sleep needs. I am also far more able to regulate my mood and attitude. I am curious to whether that is a consequence of coffee withdrawal or of a better sleeping.. thingie. Amount.

I have also begun to consider that sugar levels and sweet treats and whatnot might be causing my whole arvo zonk syndrome.

Rah blah...

This is me, waffling about food now i guess.

Coffee 6. or seven or both sort of.

6 today, midnight is the 7 day marker.
Managed to avoid coffee at a kids birthday party yesterday. Mums with coffee wafting about and a barista right looking all hey have a coffee bro and i did not.

And then i was up until 1am again anyway.

Afternoons are pretty killer, i get the old nana nap kick and im just spent. I do wondet though how much that could be linked to diet, but i dont know.

I have always had it, prior to night shift any anything else i can think would encourage that kind of energy crisis.

Coffee 5 i think?

I forgot again yesterday, now its very early tomorrow

At some point it was today.

Had some stuff on today. Big enough round trip plua two casually stressful appointments and a grumpy 6 year old in tow - normally bathing in coffee.

I wanted one, especially going past all the nice cafes and stuff while walking around.

And again with the Just Have One... no
Treat Yo Self.... no
And its ridiculous because i feel like a heroin addict.

But i guess its similar, sort of.
You develop a chemical.. dependency  is possible too strong a term.. lets say routine. And along with that comes the physical routine. And the daily rituals, the programming that this warm mug of goddess will just make you feel better, act better, think better, BE better.

Same thing basically.

Time for sleeps.